Thursday Thoughts!

Thursday thoughts So it's Thursday again and I figured why not try my hand at Thursday thoughts again. So here goes nothing: - I did receive my march glossybox last Friday just haven't written my review yet partly cause I am slightly underwhelmed by this months box. So hopefully the April box makes up for it and please not another bar of soap it's like your saying I stink if you that lol. -snow in spring?!? Seriously I thought its supposed to be spring so why did I wake Monday to around 3 inches of snow on the ground? Wish it would start warming up and feeling like spring. - Ipsy I will need to remind myself not to check your FB page the next few weeks as you have started the sneak peaks and my favorite part of monthly sub boxes is the surprise. - Books, books, and more books: I love reading it's something my parents instilled in me and my brother from a young age. So far in the last week I finished reading two books and started on a third!  1) death by Facebook  This book has so many twists and turns I had trouble putting my phone down since I read this on my kindle app. 2) daughter of light I started reading V.C. Andrews books years ago and this is the sequel to daughter of darkness. These two books are the first vampire books in her library and though I was skeptical I found I really enjoyed them. 3) Forbidden sister This is the newest V.C. Andrews book and starts a new series. Just got this book last Friday so I'm not sure what I think about it yet after reading a few pages. -Easter: can't believe this Sunday is Easter but I am looking forward to being able to have ketchup again! Yes I did just say I'm looking forward to ketchup. As a Roman Catholic I give up something for Lent (the 40 days leading up to Easter) and I gave up ketchup cause I use it at least once a day. -Easter also reminds me of earlier this week when my mom explained the true meaning behind Easter to my niece K. K is so smart and she even explained Easter to one of her friends at school this week which made all of us smile. Can't come up with anything else right now so I guess I'll end this post and hope you guys come back to read next Thursday since I think I kinda like these type of posts. Live.Love.Stay asp-tastic!

Thursday Thoughts

Thursday thoughts  I saw this on a few other blogs so I decided I'd give it a try this week.  It may or may not become a weekly thing not sure yet. - Starting to get impatient waiting on my march glossybox to get here especially seeing so many people posting they got theirs. Last month I was one of the first people to get their box so I am really not liking having to wait.  - Speaking of glossybox they are offering a limited edition box today which I was considering buying but I'm not sure I will now after seeing the picture of the products. It's not looking like a box I'd enjoy so I think I'm going to hold off and wait for the next one. - I am looking forward to reorganizing my stuff between my two rooms. Well I should clarify that I'm looking forward to the finished product not the process to get to it. - I did get some good news this week that I am off the wait list for ipsy and will be receiving my first bag next month. Hoping it's a cute bag and I'm looking forward to seeing that adorable pink envelope in my mailbox next month! - Next month I will most likely be receiving 3 packages again only they will be glossybox (the last of my 3 month subscription and I plan on resubscribing in may!) also my first ipsy bag and I may possibly be getting my first goodies co box.So we will see how I feel about these two subscriptions. Loving that ipsy is a bag instead of a box since I love bags and have so many of them already! - The one other monthly subscription box that I am really wanting to try is the popsugar must have box which look so amazing to me. The only thing that I don't really like about that one is the price. - I can hardly believe it is almost April which means autism awareness month! Also my brothers 30th birthday and I still have no clue what to get him but it's not till around the end of April so I have time to figure it out.  - Zombie perfume?!? Demeter has aparently now released a perfume that is supposed to mask your human smell so the zombies don't know your alive if there is a zombie apocalypse. Not sure I would buy this one but I am wanting to smell some of the other crazy sounding scents that Demeter has just not sure where they even sell these. Well that's it for my first Thursday thoughts hopefully you weren't bored and I am hoping to get my glossybox soon so that I can post my review up here. Keep your eye out for that and my voxbox product review blogs! Live.Love.Stay Asp-tastic!

March fancy box

I got the march fancy box in the mail today and they are some unique products I received. The box cost me around $21 since I was able to use a code for $25 off and my boyfriend and I were both excited to see what they sent. I do slightly wish I'd gotten some sort of accessory for my iPhone but o well. Let's get into the box. Clocky rolling runaway alarm clock- this is cute but the picture on the box was pink while the actual clock I got is black. I'd been excited thinking I got a pink one. This will probably end up being a gift for someone just not sure who I'd give it to yet lol. It's an alarm clock that rolls away from you when you go to turn it off. Pilot and captain tee shirt- I would never pay $32 for a tshirt but I'll probably wear this shirt to sleep in since it is super soft. It would have been funnier if I had gotten the DC airport one instead of the Paris one that I got.  Broom groomer mini- this is a cute little product the mini broom fits right in the dustpan for easy storage. This may end up being another gift just not sure who I would give it to. Perhaps my brother for his birthday next month since he just got a new apartment. $10 shoptiques gift card- I looked on their website earlier and didn't really see anything I would buy but I already have an idea who I'm going to give this to. Citrus zinger water bottle- such a neat idea you fill the bottle with water and put half a citrus fruit in the bottom compartment where there is a juicer. Then you are able to infuse your water with the citrus juice. It's a cute bottle but we never have fruit other then apples and bananas in the house. All in all I may only be keeping the shirt but at least I got some cute unique gifts for people now just to figure out who gets what lol. Live.Love.Stay Asp-tastic!

Sugar n spice n everything nice that's what my first voxbox is made of!

Sugar and spice and everything nice- that's what my very first voxbox is made of! ! Hey guys! So this week looks like I'm going to be posting THREE box reviews for you guys to look upon, hope you love 'em! So let's start this box week off right with a truly sweet voxbox! I joined influenster at the end of January and was surprised to receive an email two weeks later that I was prequalified for a feb voxbox. Took the survey right away and a few weeks later I got the email that I was picked to receive a box. This box is free from influenster for the purposes of testing the products. So let's dive into the goodness! The products: Nectresse (box of 40 packets)- This is from the makers of Splenda and tastes like sugar but has zero calories. It is made from monk fruit and other natural sweeteners. I got two free packets of this a month or so ago which I didn't get the chance to try so I'm looking forward to trying this! Vaseline spray & go moisturizer total moisture (6.5 oz spray canister)- The info card says that this spray lotion moisturizes and absorbs in seconds. I really like that it claims to not leave your skin greasy or sticky since I really don't like lotions that leave my skin sticky and greasy.  BelVita breakfast biscuits (a packet of 4 biscuits)- I'm probably going to give these to one of my family members to try as I don't really like hard cookies. I will say they do look good though. Dickinson's original witch hazel oil controlling towelettes (20-count box and coupons)- the info card says that these have a soothing blend of witch hazel and aloe to rejuvenate skin and lift dirt and impurities from pores. I am excited to try these and see if they will help the little bit of oil and blemishes that I've been noticing lately. Colgate optic white collection (toothbrush, toothpaste and mouthwash)- these products are said to get you whiter teeth in five days as compared to ordinary toothpaste alone. I find it a little funny that I was excited about there being a toothbrush in here since I was going to buy a new one very soon and now I don't have to! I will probably only use the toothpaste a few times and same for the mouthwash as mint makes me gag (which I'm sure I mentioned in my first blog)  All in all I really like this box and am so grateful that influenster chose me to receive one.  I will be posting review blogs for the products as I try them so keep an eye out for that. This blog was just to give you guys my first opinion on the sugar n spice voxbox. I am not paid to do this and received this box of goods purely for products testing and reviewing. Live.Love.Stay Asp-tastic!

"I may not be where I intended to go, but I am exactly where I'm meant to be"

Upon finding this quote it just felt like the right title for this blog entry. I can't quite explain why but today is just one of my 'bad' aspie days. If someone were to ask me why I would not be able to explain. I just know that I can feel a difference and that I don't feel like being around people.  There have been days in my past where thinking about the vast difference between where I wanted to be and where I truly was caused a deep depression. Especially seeing so many people around me at those points in their lives. I now know that where I am in my life is where I am supposed to be at this time.  I suppose part of my bad day is wondering about when I will finally get my disability hearing and wishing I could just get approved already. My left eye is bugging me today which means one of the corneal blisters likely popped. I am looking forward to and yet nervous about the next big surgery I am going to have. Hopefully some point this year I will be able to go in and have my left eye removed. In the past I never thought this would be a decision that would be placed upon me. I also have had a lot of time to think about this decision and know that it is the right one for me. Since my left eye no longer has vision and hurts at varying levels every day there are far more reasons for the surgery. It will also help me to be able to look at myself in the mirror and not have my thoughts go right to the shunt in my left eye. My mother and friends have told me that they don't notice it but for me it's all I see in the mirror. I'm nervous because it is the biggest surgery that I will ever have. My loving boyfriend has told me that I'm not allowed to be nervous though as that is his job. It does help knowing that I have so many people who are here for. I know that their support will mean even more to me after the surgery since I'm going to need help adjusting to this big life change.  I guess it's just hard wrapping my head around having to make this huge decision at the age of 27. God has never given me more than I could handle in the past so I fully trust that this is part of his bigger plan for my life. Even though I don't feel like being around people today I just wanted to get some of the things bouncing around inside my head out. Writing out my thoughts is somewhat therapeutic to me and helps me sort some of them out. My bad day isn't because I'm sad persay, there are plenty of things in my life to make me smile. I have amazing parents, a great brother, a wonderful niece, the best friend anyone could ask for, and a boyfriend who loves me for me and makes me smile every day.  I love all of them beyond words and more then I can ever express I just hope that they understand how much their support and love mean to me each day. 

Glossybox February 2013 international style box review

Glossybox
February 2013 international style
Today when I went to check the mail there was an exciting surprise - my February glossybox!
For those of you who do not yet know what glossybox is it is a monthly subscription box that costs $21/ month with free shipping although the monthly cost does go down when you purchase the 3 month, 6 month or 1 year subscription. They send out a monthly themed box which tends to include 5 beauty products which can be deluxe sized samples or full size products.
After researching monthly subscription boxes for a while I finally settled on glossybox to be the one I wanted to try so I signed up for a 3 month subscription last week. At checkout they'd given me an estimated ship date of February 19th but since I'd yet to recieve a shipping notice was under the impression my box had yet to ship.
So there was a little happy dance at my mailbox today at the sight of a glossybox poking out (they had to shove it in there and I do wish they had left it on my porch, which is what it looks like is done with other peoples glossybox, since they had to leave the mailbox hanging open with the box in plain sight.)
Glossybox comes in a cute black outer box which had the glossybox logo all over it and has a convenient pull tab to open. Inside that box is the actual glossybox which tends to be a pale pink with the logo right in the middle of the lid. Although they have had months with different looks for the box.
Inside the box you find an info card sitting atop the tissue paper that holds all the goodies with a ribbon wrapped around everything. I was surprised that the ribbon and all the embellishments for this Month were shades of pink as I feel it would have been cuter in red, white and blue to match the adorable little info card but that's just my thoughts. Now on to the beauty goodies!!
The first product I pulled out was the
- Evologie esystem duo pack intensive blemish serum & stay clear cream.
They sent out the full size of this which is two 5ml (0.17 Fl Oz) tubes one of each product. It claims to rapidly clear blemishes and reduce redness and post acne scaring. I am looking forward to trying this as I've been getting a few pimples lately. Although I am not thrilled with the slight medicinal smell of the blemish serum.
Next was the
- LISI liquid line eyeliner in Potion 07
This appears to be another full sized product. The potion 07 is a shimmery deep blue that reminds me of the color of my moms chevy cobalt and I absolutely love that color! It looks like it will be a cute color on when I swatched a tiny bit on my hand. The info card shows one in black so I'm guessing that they sent out a mix of different shades throughout the boxes. Now I just need to figure out a cute eyeshadow shade to use with this it might be nice with a silvery grey. I am liking that it's not a pencil eye liner as I always feel I'm going to poke myself in the eyeball with those LOL.
Third product was
- Nail Rock nail wraps in Meadham Kirchhoff AW 2012
This design would have been better suited for a Halloween themed box as there are ghosts and other funky looking designs on them. The package claims these nail wraps will last up to 10 days once you put them on. I might try them in a few weeks after I take off the super cute hot pink gelish polish I have on now. It appears tho be a full size product and that when you want to remove them you can just peel them off of your nails no nail polish remover required which is pretty cool.
Fourth was
- Bvlgari Eau Parfumee Au the Blanc soap 
This little bar of soap is wrapped so cutely and it made the entire box smell wonderful! A full size bar would cost $30 so even though it smells good I wouldn't shell out that much just for a bar of soap. The 1.76 oz bar in the box should last a while so that's a good thing. Since I prefer to use shower gel I'll probably just use this occasionally which means it will last even longer for me.
The last product
- Da Vinci cosmetics shimmer powder in twilight
The info card says that this mineral powder can be used to add a subtle glow. It can be used with eye shadow or blush or as a highlighter under eyebrows or on cheeks. I am in love with the shade they sent me when I swatched it on my hand it goes very well with my skin tone. The shimmer is very subtle which is a plus as I don't want to have my look be overly glittery.
All in all I am impressed with my first glossybox and am glad that I signed up for three months and would gladly sign up for more. This months box shipped very fast and it appears that I may be one of the first subscribers to receive their box this month! This helped me with my resolve to not look at any sneak peaks for this month so my box was a complete surprise when it got here. If you are interested in ordering glossybox please consider using my referral  link http://www.glossybox.com/referal?CI=NDMxNDM=
I'm hoping to continue my plan of not looking at sneak peaks next month which I guessed will be a spring theme and I may be right as the website lists a 'spring fling' box now that wasn't there earlier this week!
I might be doing YouTube reviews on these boxes I just didn't feel like doing one today. But there's a chance I'll film one later tonight or tomorrow. Next month I plan to try to film it while I inbox but thisonth would be already unboxed when I film.
In the next few weeks I should also have be receiving the other monthly subscription box I decided to try the fancy.com's fancy box! So keep a look out for that review and if you want to order your own fancy box there is a code right now (25off1) which will get you $25 off your first fancy box which is full of quirky homies wares, gadgets and clothing to name a few things! I hope this review wasn't too long and ramble and I do apologize for lack of photos at the moment as I had to post this from my phone since blogger wasn't working on my laptop :(
Live. Love. Stay Asp-tastic!

"Heart beats fast colors and promises how to be brave how can I love when I"m afraid to fall?" - Christina Perri "A Thousand Years"

Sorry I haven't posted a new blog in a while I've just had a lot on my mind and wasn't quite sure what I wanted to write. Writing down ones innermost thoughts can be harder than you would imagine. Not knowing what to write about and a lot of the time finding it hard to put into words the things you really want or need to say.
There have been many times in my life that I have had trouble coming up with what I want to say, much like everyone else at one point or another. I tend to worry about whether I will say too much or not enough.
The past few months I have been spending a lot of time thinking about the concept of love. In my past there have been times I have thought I loved people when I did not have the clarity to see how rong everything was.
This kept me from seeing that what I thought was my first serious boyfriend whom I thought I loved was not what it seemed. I found out we had started on a lie that he liked me because he thought that this would get him an easy pass into my pants which he never got. There was 'George' who I really cared about and I do apologize if there were times I seemed uncaring. I just cared about him so much that I had a very hard time expressing what I felt and wanted to say around him. We both had our part in messing up our relationship and he has since found a wonderful woman to spend his life with. 
I guess I just wish I knew how or where to even start to try to meet someone to love me for me since driving makes me way to nervous now with my eyesight. I have days where I get sad thinking how it feels even harder to find someone now. A guys not just gonna show up on my doorstep someday and ask me out, I mean come on that kind of crazy thing only happens in the movie or on tv.
I know a lot of you are probably thinking "you find love when you stop looking for it." well now that would require the doorstep man I mentioned above and we all know that's not happening. I should stop this post now because the topic is starting to make me sad again. Who knows what the future holds? Only God does and I know that there has to be some wonderful guy out there that he made just for me. Is it so wrong that I just wish I could get some flowers and someone to tell me they think I am beautiful inside and out?? Instead the only guy who seems to contact me, GP, wants only what my body has to offer and not my heart or mind. It took a while to realize this but now I see that he is not that sort of person I need in my life as he only holds me back from moving on.