Cause these words are knives and often leave scars...

I know it's late and your probably wondering does this chick never sleep?!? I swear I do sleep I just have trouble getting to sleep most nights so here is sit with headphones in blasting panic! at the disco and a billion thoughts rushing through my brain. This band always has the effect of making me think of my past and exes. Tonight they've got me thinking about my most recent ex J and wondering why it is I just can't seem to stop thinking about him.
I don't think I'll ever stop caring about him since he was my first love. But sometimes you have to let something go cause either the timing is off or its not what's meant to be. I'm still not sure which of those 2 it is yet but I've decided it's time to open my heart and be open to new relationships.  I'm nervous since I know that words can build you up but they can also turn on you and cut you deep.
Recently I admitted to one of my friends that I like him and he told me that he likes me back. We are still trying to figure out what this means to us since it's all still confusing and up in the air. I don't want to hurt him or to be hurt but I'm also not going to use that fear as an excuse to close myself off from the possibilities. For now with an open mind and heart I welcome the unknown and hope it doesn't blow up in my face.
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Consultations and twiddling thumbs

So as I said before I had a consultation with an eye surgeon on the 6th of this month. I was planning on doing this post that week but I just kept forgetting.
The day of my appointment my dad drove me there and we got there early. I signed in and seeing as there was no one else in the waiting room figured I'd be called back soon.  We were in that waiting room at least an hour before I was called back. First they took a few pictures of my eyes for before pictures. Then we went in the first room and I answered questions for my patient file while one of the medical assistants entered it into their system.
After that she took us to a back hallway and had us sit and wait for an exam room to open. Once one did we got to go in there and twiddle our thumbs for another 30 minutes waiting to actually see the surgeon. When she finally got back to see us she was very friendly and apologetic for the long wait. Upon seeing how young I am she of course questioned whether I was sure I wanted to remove the eye and not just try a corneal transplant. I explained to her that it is both the pain and my not liking seeing the shunt in the mirror that make me sure this is the right choice for me.
She then told us about the 2 different kinds of implants: one is porous and moves like a regular eye but in the long run causes s lot of complications.  The second which us the one I'm going with is smooth and will have some movement but cause very few if any complications in the long run. She showed us a plastic example of an implant which had to be one of the coolest things I've ever seen. It had so much detail and made me even more excited to see my final product since it will be unique to my eye and no one else's will be the same.
We were able to schedule surgery for February 25th and now all I have left to do ahead of surgery is a pre op physical and some blood work which is at the beginning of February.  It's still hard to believe it's getting closer and right now I'm more excited then nervous but I'm sure I'll get more nervous as the day approaches. There probably won't be another post in this series till after the surgery and that will most likely not be up for at least a week after surgery but it really depends how I feel. I hope that you guys are enjoying reading about my experiences and it's not too boring.
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Splendies January 2014

My January Splendies surprised me by being in my mailbox today. I have been subscribed to them since around August of last year but never felt like posting a blog about them. Mostly because it's panties and I felt kinda weird going 'hey guys come look at my new panties' lol.
They send you 3 pairs of panties every month for $12 although if you don't like thongs you can do what I do and pay an extra $2 to ensure you (almost) never get a thong. I say almost cause last month I did receive a thong but it was a mix up as they were replacing a pair I'd gotten in both my November and September orders. But their customer service is amazing and they make any mistake right, I'd had a mixup with my 2nd replacement pair being a small by accident but I never emailed them about it cause I felt weird to write again.
This month yay no thongs and all 3 pairs even seem to go with a color scheme of white, black and pinks which I love.
Pair 1- White with lace trim
Pair 2- pink lace with a black bow
Pair 3- White with hearts and leopard print with black lace on the edges and a black bow.
My favorite would have to be the ones with the hearts they would be great for a valentines date. I'm wondering if this is one of the pairs they will be sending for valentines day and I just lucked out and one slipped in my shipment early lol. I wouldn't complain if more valentine panties were to slip into my February shipment as I love fun patterns like these!
I'm also trying splendies sister company volupties this month and should hopefully get those next week so I'm excited to see what I get!
This is the first subscription box I've gotten this year and one of my resolutions is to post more box reviews and blogs in general this year so fingers crossed I stick with it.
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